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100daysandnights:

Today we remember our mother: the first one to see us as we were, who brought us (although the father caught us). We still are as she saw us, too, under all that slap and sham piled onto our faces ever since. But let’s not overthink the matter of mother, let’s just enjoy her as we remember her: she let her brown hair hang loose; she taught us to read; she showed us her favorite flower and uttered regret that it wasn’t scented; she sat by our bed when we were fevered, so that we still feel her cool hand on our forehead; she read to us with her slow, measured, deep voice; she smoked, full of remorse, blueish clouds forming an oracle around her head; she liked to cook and hated to clean and yet she did both; she loved too deeply; she traveled on her own if she had to; she was proud of her driving skills; she favored dark wood; she walked briskly; she carried herself with dignity, always. When she got old, in the end, we began to doubt the power of life itself. We held the wrinkles of her skin with its age spots between our fingers, and the skin wasn’t springy anymore. Mother looked at us then with her watery, sorrowing eyes. She ruefully twisted her rosary: we may safely assume that she felt concern for our future and some guilt over her neglect; there is always a future, always neglect. Do not worry, mother, we told her with a filial smile, for we had long understood that we must take her as she is and leave her as she once was. We knew that we were a piece of her and that she kept a piece of us. We ran our hands over her hair and our voices turned hoarse at the thought of death hanging over this gorgeous gray head.
#51/100 Days 2011. — 7 days of family. Today: mother. Illustration: unknown artist, drawing of mother, Paris 1978. Text: Marcus Speh

100daysandnights:

Today we remember our mother: the first one to see us as we were, who brought us (although the father caught us). We still are as she saw us, too, under all that slap and sham piled onto our faces ever since. But let’s not overthink the matter of mother, let’s just enjoy her as we remember her: she let her brown hair hang loose; she taught us to read; she showed us her favorite flower and uttered regret that it wasn’t scented; she sat by our bed when we were fevered, so that we still feel her cool hand on our forehead; she read to us with her slow, measured, deep voice; she smoked, full of remorse, blueish clouds forming an oracle around her head; she liked to cook and hated to clean and yet she did both; she loved too deeply; she traveled on her own if she had to; she was proud of her driving skills; she favored dark wood; she walked briskly; she carried herself with dignity, always. When she got old, in the end, we began to doubt the power of life itself. We held the wrinkles of her skin with its age spots between our fingers, and the skin wasn’t springy anymore. Mother looked at us then with her watery, sorrowing eyes. She ruefully twisted her rosary: we may safely assume that she felt concern for our future and some guilt over her neglect; there is always a future, always neglect. Do not worry, mother, we told her with a filial smile, for we had long understood that we must take her as she is and leave her as she once was. We knew that we were a piece of her and that she kept a piece of us. We ran our hands over her hair and our voices turned hoarse at the thought of death hanging over this gorgeous gray head.

#51/100 Days 2011. — 7 days of family. Today: mother. Illustration: unknown artist, drawing of mother, Paris 1978. Text: Marcus Speh

babilano:

 
Cy Twombly, April 25, 1928 – July 5, 2011,
Untitled, 1957
oil, pencil, and crayon on gessoed board on paper-faced canvas, 19.6 x 27.6 inches

babilano:

Cy Twombly, April 25, 1928 – July 5, 2011,

Untitled, 1957

oil, pencil, and crayon on gessoed board on paper-faced canvas, 19.6 x 27.6 inches

 
May God bless and keep you always,
May your wishes all come true,
May you always do for others
And let others do for you.
May you build a ladder to the stars
And climb on every rung,
May you stay forever young,
Forever young, forever young,
May you stay forever young.

May you grow up to be righteous,
May you grow up to be true,
May you always know the truth
And see the lights surrounding you.
May you always be courageous,
Stand upright and be strong,
May you stay forever young,
Forever young, forever young,
May you stay forever young.

May your hands always be busy,
May your feet always be swift,
May you have a strong foundation
When the winds of changes shift.
May your heart always be joyful,
May your song always be sung,
May you stay forever young,
Forever young, forever young,
May you stay forever young.

(Lyrics: Bob Dylan)
mpdrolet:

The Band at the pond, West Saugerties, NY, 1968
Elliot Landy

May God bless and keep you always,
May your wishes all come true,
May you always do for others
And let others do for you.
May you build a ladder to the stars
And climb on every rung,
May you stay forever young,
Forever young, forever young,
May you stay forever young.

May you grow up to be righteous,
May you grow up to be true,
May you always know the truth
And see the lights surrounding you.
May you always be courageous,
Stand upright and be strong,
May you stay forever young,
Forever young, forever young,
May you stay forever young.

May your hands always be busy,
May your feet always be swift,
May you have a strong foundation
When the winds of changes shift.
May your heart always be joyful,
May your song always be sung,
May you stay forever young,
Forever young, forever young,
May you stay forever young.

(Lyrics: Bob Dylan)

mpdrolet:

The Band at the pond, West Saugerties, NY, 1968

Elliot Landy

METAZEN: nobody knows how metazen works but work it does. you should check it out. it’s one of the proudest products coming out of canada with the pretty frank hinton (who doesn’t respect female expression) at the helm.

METAZEN: nobody knows how metazen works but work it does. you should check it out. it’s one of the proudest products coming out of canada with the pretty frank hinton (who doesn’t respect female expression) at the helm.

Birth of the Bildungsroman (Goethe, Wilhelm Meister’s Apprenticeship, 1795).
The lesson of the book is that we should give unity to our lives by devoting them with hearty enthusiasm to some pursuit, and that the pursuit is assigned to us by Nature through the capacities she has given us.
—Sir J R Seeley, On Goethe

Birth of the Bildungsroman (Goethe, Wilhelm Meister’s Apprenticeship, 1795).

The lesson of the book is that we should give unity to our lives by devoting them with hearty enthusiasm to some pursuit, and that the pursuit is assigned to us by Nature through the capacities she has given us.

—Sir J R Seeley, On Goethe

The cat that adopted us

 

 A few years ago, a cat took residence in our front yard. She made her home under my husband’s old Ford Ranger truck that was sitting in the RV parking stall beside the lawn, waiting to be donated to a charity we were yet to decide on. The cat was as black as the truck that gave her refuge, or so we thought. We would learn later on that under the bright sunlight, her fur turned into the color of dark chocolate.

     I love animals in general, but I never considered myself a cat person. Not until this cat came along. Who wouldn’t fall in love with her? She had a quiet, gentle temperament and a laid back, almost demure demeanor. She never bothered us and seemed perfectly content living in our front yard, devoid of that characteristic feline curiosity and lacking any interest whatsoever in intruding into our house. She never begged for food either, leaving me somewhat perplexed over exactly what she had for nourishment.

     The only thing she showed a bit of a hunger for was some affection from us. She started walking eagerly toward my family whenever we left or arrived home. When we beckoned her, she came without hesitation or any hint of fear or mistrust, and stood on her hind legs to lift her head up and rub it against our hands.

     I swear this cat had a thing for cars. Driving home and pulling into the driveway turned into a complicated task for me because the minute she spotted or heard the car turning the corner into our street, she positioned herself right in the middle of the driveway, between the car and the garage door. Terrified that I would run her over, I got into the habit of stopping the car and shooing her over to the side or picking her up and depositing her under the gum tree before proceeding into the garage. It was not always easy; I sometimes had to do this repeatedly until the cat stayed put in the sidelines. This cat was as stubborn as I was and couldn’t quite understand that the middle of the driveway was not exactly the safest spot to be when a car was headed for the garage. I, on the other hand, refused to believe (no matter how many times my daughter tried to convince me) that this cat, by nature, like all other cats, had exquisitely sharp reflexes and could nimbly dodge any approaching danger. “Just keep driving, Mom. She knows how and when to get out of the way,” my daughter would lecture me, to no avail.

     My stubbornness did not end there. My husband, who knew me only too well, warned me against feeding the cat. He did not want the cat to become dependent on us for survival, and felt that offering her food would weaken her scavenging and hunting instincts. He also made it clear to me right from the start that we were not taking this cat in—-meaning into the house as an “inside pet.” We already had two big dogs (who were not cat-trained), a gold fish, and seven parakeets. Adding a cat to the existing menagerie was out of the question. The cat would eat the fish and the birds, and the dogs would eat the cat. Period. End of discussion. Peaceful coexistence was not going to be possible under those circumstances. I said “okay” but wasn’t sure, deep inside, if I meant it or if I simply wanted to keep the peace among us, humans.

     I started secretly feeding her. At first I surreptitiously sneaked her a handful of the dogs’ kibble whenever I got a chance. She didn’t seem to mind the canine diet at all and chewed those big pieces with hardly any effort. Yet, something told me it was just wrong! Seriously. Feeding a cat dog food? How lame was that? And how heartbreaking! So I gave in to the inevitable and bought her a small bag of cat food.

     I hid the bag at the bottom of a plastic basket I kept in the car, beneath a pile of canvas shopping bags, an umbrella, books, and CDs. I devised a new clandestine feeding routine. My husband works from home most of the time, and on days that he drove to the office, he usually got home ahead of me. As long as I was confident that the coast was clear—-he was inside the house, safely oblivious to the goings-on outside, or he was not tinkering in the garage or in the front yard—-I parked the car in the driveway and kept the garage door closed while I fed the cat. I waited till she was done eating before opening the garage door. I made sure I gave her just enough for her to finish so that we didn’t leave any evidence behind.

     Amazingly, the cat and I carried on this covert operation for months without getting busted. Then one day, as I was laying the cat food down on the brick foot path beside the driveway, the garage door started rolling up and my husband walked out (or should I say “walked in”?) on us. I froze and heard my heart jump out and land with a big thud on the bricks, beside the yet uneaten cat food. The sweet smile on my husband’s face slowly transformed into a frown as his mind processed the meaning of the unexpected scene that had just unfolded before him.

     I don’t know if it was the horrified look in my eyes or the sight of a hungry cat whose dinner had been abruptly aborted that melted my husband’s heart, but something about that scene made him respond with instant, unconditional forgiveness. My dear husband. He is really a very kind man underneath that tough, pragmatic, no-nonsense exterior.

     No words were exchanged between us at that moment. Only a silent understanding that we had just adopted a cat. Or rather, that a cat had adopted us. And finally, the poor cat could eat, free from guilt (my guilt, that is).

by The Reluctant Human

flipback=kindleKiller? backflip? backToBooks? flipThruNovels?

(see: article in the guardian)

… It’s just pure pleasure to point at a different BOOK format rather than a new electronic gadget. Even if it boils down to (free) advertisement, we don’t care. we want you to buy books, eat books, write books, sit on books, lose books, give books as gifts, publish books, bake them, hang them, stab them, adore them, elevate them, hoard them, … let them be. 

  • Artist: Mark Kerstetter
  • TrackName: what would I do...mp3
  • Album: Beckett's Poetry

what would I do

by Samuel Beckett

what would I do without this world faceless incurious
where to be lasts but an instant where every instant
spills in the void the ignorance of having been
without this wave where in the end
body and shadow together are engulfed
what would I do without this silence where the murmurs die
the pantings the frenzies towards succour towards love
without this sky that soars
above its ballast dust

what would I do what I did yesterday and the day before
peering out of my deadlight looking for another
wandering like me eddying far from all the living
in a convulsive space
among the voices voiceless
that throng my hiddenness

“I TRY TO REMEMBER HOW INSIGNIFICANT MY EXPERIENCE IS, AND HOW PEOPLE’S EXPERIENCES WITH MUSIC ARE THEIR OWN THING.”
(interview with Trey anastasio/The Believer)

“I TRY TO REMEMBER HOW INSIGNIFICANT MY EXPERIENCE IS, AND HOW PEOPLE’S EXPERIENCES WITH MUSIC ARE THEIR OWN THING.”

(interview with Trey anastasio/The Believer)